by ansuchin » Mon Sep 26, 2011 11:35 pm
Fear is programmed into our biology, and definitely has its uses when it works and when it helps us to avoid danger that we can avoid. However it is more than useless when it persists in spite of its futility, since it then clouds the mind with demons of our own making, and characteristically propels us humans to employ our minds to feed divisive and delusional symbols and ideologies to soothe our persistent anxieties.
Death is a sensitive subject for people since it tends to be intertwined with the traumas and losses of their lives. People will contemplate what they can, and it is not my intention to disturb. Still, our survival from our conception to our end entirely depends upon the deaths of other living things that we must consume to live. We derive our very existence from our dance with death, by this bargain every living creature has thrust upon them at birth, and that is just how it is. We live by the grace of death, in each instant of ending and becoming, so to somehow consider ourselves as an exception to this ever present and inclusive process I would find very difficult to appreciate. Still, what is anticipated by thought rather than actually experienced in the moment will remain uncertain though, since thought is confined to its accustomed activity of developing assorted options and possibilities while operating upon the contents of memory.
I have witnessed, experienced, and participated in death as well as approached its dark precipice a number of times in my life. I do not require superstitious dogma and tradition to instruct me in these matters. Arguably, those experiences remain as only memories now for me that my busy mind can attend to in her usual fashion in spite of and as a consequence of my desire to simply forget them. I have learnt to be compassionate to my mind however - she is only trying to grasp, compare, and explain to help me to gain peace in the face of my unwanted and disturbing recollections even though her exercise is a completely futile one. I have found peace through understanding, accepting, and having benevolence for her nature, and not by indulging her well intentioned vanities.
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